I have not been on here in a while, but while talking to a close friend I was inspired. She got me to really thinking about my life and how as a female, most of us are nurturers by habit. We are usually creatures of habit anyway and most women are mothers or mother figures. I have found that in my 44 years of living that this can be a curse for most women because we tend to latch on and want to "take care " of everyone in our village.
For me, this was the demise that almost destroyed me. As a little girl, I was a daddy's girl and a momma's baby at the same time. I wanted to make momma happy and see daddy smile. I watched my mother work from home and keep the house clean, food on the table and all of us together while working a job as well. I wanted to be my mother along with my career. I wanted to be married and take care of my family. Well, I did get married...TWICE and both failed miserably! You see, I married for all the RIGHT reasons but, I married the WRONG person.
We as women have to stop thinking that we can CHANGE a man into what we want him to be. We have to stop chasing after the dreams and the TV version of what love is. It is all nice and dandy to watch on the Hallmark Channel or the Lifetime Channel but, it is what it is...made for television! We have to FIRST love ourselves in order for ANY man to love us properly. We have to get our acts together and right with God and wait patiently on HIM to send us our chosen mate. I know for me, I kept trying to "find" my mate. He would say all the things I wanted to hear and as I stated earlier, I even married 2 of the BOZOS. It is time for my BOAZ to come but, I can't meet Boaz until I am in my RUTH mentality!
I hope that true love comes my way again but, until it happens I refuse to settle for the separated, at home because of the kids, sleeping in separate bedroom, living with my momma, car is in the shop type of guy! Been there, done that! Know your worth so that you don't have to settle for less either. I know my worth and it is PRICELESS!
For me, this was the demise that almost destroyed me. As a little girl, I was a daddy's girl and a momma's baby at the same time. I wanted to make momma happy and see daddy smile. I watched my mother work from home and keep the house clean, food on the table and all of us together while working a job as well. I wanted to be my mother along with my career. I wanted to be married and take care of my family. Well, I did get married...TWICE and both failed miserably! You see, I married for all the RIGHT reasons but, I married the WRONG person.
We as women have to stop thinking that we can CHANGE a man into what we want him to be. We have to stop chasing after the dreams and the TV version of what love is. It is all nice and dandy to watch on the Hallmark Channel or the Lifetime Channel but, it is what it is...made for television! We have to FIRST love ourselves in order for ANY man to love us properly. We have to get our acts together and right with God and wait patiently on HIM to send us our chosen mate. I know for me, I kept trying to "find" my mate. He would say all the things I wanted to hear and as I stated earlier, I even married 2 of the BOZOS. It is time for my BOAZ to come but, I can't meet Boaz until I am in my RUTH mentality!
I hope that true love comes my way again but, until it happens I refuse to settle for the separated, at home because of the kids, sleeping in separate bedroom, living with my momma, car is in the shop type of guy! Been there, done that! Know your worth so that you don't have to settle for less either. I know my worth and it is PRICELESS!
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