It's MY Time!
I have made a drastic decision in my life and it is to go back to college!! I realize that it is MY time! I have made so many frivolous choices in my life till I can't keep count of them. I am tired of hiding behind all of my bad decisions and think it is MY time! Time to stand up for myself, time to make myself proud, time to do what MAN could NOT do for me and TIME to give it all to GOD!!!
In the past, I have always looked at a man to be my hero or savior. I made excuses for not going back to school because my son was sole responsibility. I didn't think I could purchase a vehicle or pay my own rent without failing. Well, some things have happened in my life that made me see things differently.
First of all, for those of you who are REAL close to me know I don't talk of my past too often, but it needs to be brought to the light in order for me to move forward! In 2007-2008, I was incarcerated under the name of Crystal Hulbert! At first, I felt as though God was punishing me, but I have come to the realization that God was saving me!! I was in a dunce of a marriage and too fearful to leave on my own. I prayed one morning for God to remove ME from the situation. Well, the old adage; "Be careful what you pray for" is true because I was arrested on the very next day!! Now, my "husband" had the Power of Attorney over my funds and was able to bail me out, but chose otherwise. I was heartbroken, but God showed me some things while I was away.
God took the pain away, woke me up and showed me that my family DOES love me and have my back regardless and that ANY OLD MAN just won't do!!!
Upon my release, I came home and filed for my divorce. I immediately started dating a young man that I thought was "THE ONE" again, but God said otherwise. He was in my life for a season. I tried to make him the "Lifetime", but it was not in God's plan.
I have purchased my very first car that did not get repossessed and it is in MY name!! I have my own apartment and just renewed my lease for the very first time!!! You see, while married to this "boy", I was used to getting evicted and looking for a new place all on my own!!! I am tired of running!!!!!!
I am no longer on state funded assistance anymore as well!! NO more food stamps, medicaid and the short period of child support ended years ago!! I now make TOO MUCH money for any state assistance!! I am proud of this accomplishment b/c so many people seem to get "USED" to being on it and never want to get off of it!
Going back to college is only the beginning of the things I will accomplish! I am working on purchasing ANOTHER car and paying for it MYSELF to give to my son; Christopher Dwayne Clark! I am very proud of the young man he has become and he has stood by my side when no one else would. Despite all the drama that has come our way, we are closer than two peas in a pod!!! I love my son with all my heart and soul!!!
Now, I am Crystal Demetria Clark! The name that is my birthright and the name that stands for courage, strength and so many other POSITIVE things!! I am a LIVING testimony, I am strong, I am a woman and I am GOD'S child!!! I am receiving all the blessing with my NAME on it b/c it is MY time!!!!
In the past, I have always looked at a man to be my hero or savior. I made excuses for not going back to school because my son was sole responsibility. I didn't think I could purchase a vehicle or pay my own rent without failing. Well, some things have happened in my life that made me see things differently.
First of all, for those of you who are REAL close to me know I don't talk of my past too often, but it needs to be brought to the light in order for me to move forward! In 2007-2008, I was incarcerated under the name of Crystal Hulbert! At first, I felt as though God was punishing me, but I have come to the realization that God was saving me!! I was in a dunce of a marriage and too fearful to leave on my own. I prayed one morning for God to remove ME from the situation. Well, the old adage; "Be careful what you pray for" is true because I was arrested on the very next day!! Now, my "husband" had the Power of Attorney over my funds and was able to bail me out, but chose otherwise. I was heartbroken, but God showed me some things while I was away.
God took the pain away, woke me up and showed me that my family DOES love me and have my back regardless and that ANY OLD MAN just won't do!!!
Upon my release, I came home and filed for my divorce. I immediately started dating a young man that I thought was "THE ONE" again, but God said otherwise. He was in my life for a season. I tried to make him the "Lifetime", but it was not in God's plan.
I have purchased my very first car that did not get repossessed and it is in MY name!! I have my own apartment and just renewed my lease for the very first time!!! You see, while married to this "boy", I was used to getting evicted and looking for a new place all on my own!!! I am tired of running!!!!!!
I am no longer on state funded assistance anymore as well!! NO more food stamps, medicaid and the short period of child support ended years ago!! I now make TOO MUCH money for any state assistance!! I am proud of this accomplishment b/c so many people seem to get "USED" to being on it and never want to get off of it!
Going back to college is only the beginning of the things I will accomplish! I am working on purchasing ANOTHER car and paying for it MYSELF to give to my son; Christopher Dwayne Clark! I am very proud of the young man he has become and he has stood by my side when no one else would. Despite all the drama that has come our way, we are closer than two peas in a pod!!! I love my son with all my heart and soul!!!
Now, I am Crystal Demetria Clark! The name that is my birthright and the name that stands for courage, strength and so many other POSITIVE things!! I am a LIVING testimony, I am strong, I am a woman and I am GOD'S child!!! I am receiving all the blessing with my NAME on it b/c it is MY time!!!!
I am tearing up reading your testimony. Just know that GOD is always
ReplyDeleteon your side whenever man fails you. You are never alone!!! Your testimony is only the begining of your BLESSINGS. Everyone has a past and by no means should you ever feel ashame of it. Our past only makes us stronger. Make it count!!!
aww, thanks Kwame!!! I didn't know anyone even read it yet!! Love you!!! I have always been so proud of you and Stan both!!!
ReplyDeletei am so happy and proud of you....it took a lot of character to expose the real you...i know you now breathe better and are in good hands...."you just might get it"....AMEN...AMEN!
ReplyDelete@Damian, thank you soooo much. I am glad to release the OLD me and look forward to the NEW me. God is truly blessing me and I am glad to have true friends who do NOT judge me for my past.
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